October 23rd, 2025
3:29pm

I was recently reading the Bible as I try to do every day now, and I came across this verse:

Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body.

This made me wonder... Is sex a sin? When is it okay in the eyes of God to have sex? Well I did some researching (i.e. ChatGPT-ing) and found a very interesting point that I've never heard any Christian in all my life make.

First, you must know, the Bible was not originally written in English, it was written in Greek. Now we must ask, "What did they mean when they said, 'Flee fornication.'"? Or specifically, what were they referring to when they said, "fornication"? Well the Greek word originally used is porneia, which is a word that encompasses a broad range of sexual acts, mainly incest, homosexuality, beastiality, pedophilia, adultery, and general sexual immorality. In my opinion, though I'm no Biblical scholar and I don't know Greek, I think a closer translation would be, "sexual degeneracy".

I find this incredibly interesting because nearly every Christian I know views sex itself as objectively immoral, and even purely for the sake of reproduction they feel guilt for doing so. It shows how significant of a disconnect there is between the original meaning of the Bible and what is now believed of it.

Now comes the question then, so what is sexual morality? Well there are actually many parts of the Bible, mainly in the Old Testament, that refer to the sexual union between man and woman not in a disgraceful way, but in a beautiful and artistic way. Take Proverbs 5:18-19 for example:

Let thy fountain be blessed: and rejoice with the wife of thy youth.
Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love.

Hmmm... well that's nothing at all what I've been told the "Biblical" view on sex is! This verse though points to something much deeper than just, "Don't have sex until you're married." I believe it's much more than that. There is, for lack of a better term, a psychic or spiritual bond formed between a man and a woman when they have sex. It is the ultimate act of love, both sharing their most vulnerable moment with one another. God created Eve not only to give Adam company, but to allow humanity to participate in the joy of Creation alongside our Creator.

There was a book I read months and months ago called, King, Warrior, Magician, Lover by Robert Moore and Douglas Gillette. An incredible book. It explores the four main archetypes of masculinity, both in their Good forms and their Evil forms. For example, the "Shadow King" as they called it, would be the Tyrant. For the most part, this is an incredibly insightful book, though I came to this conclusion before I began reading the Bible so my opinion on it may have changed since then. However, when it reaches the archetype of the Lover, it makes one fatal mistake. It first makes the assertion that every great man knows how to love deeply and fully, which is true I believe, but it then points to Christianity as an example of a way of life that stifles the Lover archetype. Having now read Proverbs 5:18-19, I can say this is simply not true. Christianity encourages Love in much the same way as the authors, they simply aren't studied enough to know that.

Ultimately, I'm just amazed. I've spent my entire life believing the Protestants, thinking that all sex was temptation from Sa'tan, but now that I understand the reality of it, I feel completely overwhelmed with the beauty of it. It's not oppressive, it's not "problematic", it's the most beautiful connection anyone can ever have in their lifetime, and as soon as I read the words I knew they were the Truth.

November 14th
2:03pm

I've noticed recently that many many people who claim to be Christians are not real Christians at all. I've been reading what some people call the Jefferson Bible, but its true title is The Life and Morals of Jesus of Nazareth by Thomas Jefferson. It's Jefferson's personal edition of the Bible that he used to explain to people his religious beliefs. It only includes parts of the Bible involving Jesus, with all the miracles and mysticism removed. He doesn't walk on water, he doesn't cure the blind, he doesn't feed a village with a basket of fish, and he isn't resurrected after his crucifixion. It's a simple telling of the life Jesus lived and the lessons he preached during it. After reading this, I've begun to realize the true nature of Christianity, not what is widely known as Christianity today. What is Christian is simply the beliefs of Christ (Jesus). Just as the beliefs of Sigmund Freud would be considered "Freudian", or the beliefs of Faust to be "Faustian". A Christian is, removing all of the extra rituals and practices, someone who strictly adheres to the teachings and beliefs of Jesus. They aren't simply "Christian" but "Christ-ian". Once you understand this, you're able to see the obvious corruptions and blasphemies present through all sects of Christianity. This, of course, can also be applied to nearly every religion widely practiced today. I believe this is mostly due to the fact that people raise their children to be religious, causing said children to believe things unquestioningly until eventually religion devolves into something that is entirely separated from reality. How is it that Christians believe Jesus, who was as human as you or I, could walk on water? Reading the Bible, it is so painfully clear that it is a metaphor, yet today's western Christians believe that Jesus literally walked on water. Because of this, non-Christians view self-proclaimed Christians to be idiots for believing in such a clearly impossible feat, and Christians make themselves out to be fools, but in reality, most Christians have never read the Bible, and do not closely follow the teachings of Christ. For this reason, I still cannot in good conscience consider myself a Christian, though I do pray and practice some Christian rituals. I simply see Jesus for what he truly is: one of the many great men throughout history that many people can learn from. I treat Jesus in much the same way that I treat Marcus Aurelius, or Miyamoto Musashi, or Siddhartha Gautama, or Lao Tzu. All great men who lived great lives, and in those lives they learned many lessons which they felt necessary to share. Each of these men has their own distinct philosophical flavor, Aurelius focusing specifically on what it is to be a good man, Musashi focusing entirely on overcoming an opponent, Gautama on dealing with suffering in one's life, and Lao Tzu on understanding the way that things are by unlearning your preassumptions and biases. The truth is that Jesus never intended to begin a new religion. Jesus was born Jewish, raised Jewish, and died Jewish. He believed in the Jewish God, but unlike his fellow Jews, Jesus had felt the presence of what the Jews called God, what the Taoists call the Tao, what the Buddhists call Enlightenment, and what many educated Westerners considered common sense or simply the way that things are. He is simply one of a handful of men throughout history that were able to see things for what they were, and he saw that his people, the Jews, had lost sight of what God really was. Paying taxes and tithes to God, jailing people for working on the Sabbath day, the Jews of Jesus' time are much like the modern Christians of our own time, blindly following a rulebook that has been taught to them since childhood, with such an unquestioning loyalty that they might be willing to kill in the name of God were it necessary, and never for even a moment asking themselves whether what they believe makes any sense at all.

June 10th
5:23pm

For most of my childhood I was Christian. For most of my adolescence I was atheist. During my atheistic years I explored the depths of nihilism and the belief that there really was nothing after death, and that nothing in life mattered. From this point, I believe many people choose one of two paths: "If nothing in life really matters, then life itself doesn't matter, and I should just kill myself to get it over with," or, "Well nothing in life means anything, so why don't I just create my own meaning for it all then?" I, thankfully, chose the second path, and have been "creating my own meaning" from life ever since. It is during this process that I was once again exposed to religion, this time much later than I originally had been. Religion was no longer something that I was raised into and was supposed to believe unquestioningly, I now had the mental ability to read and understand religious texts for myself. To understand what the real meanings of the phrases were. I first was exposed to Buddhism through, funnily enough, the manga Vagabond by Takehiko Inoue. Miyamoto Musashi was a devout Zen Buddhist, as were many good men of his time. This lead me to read Alan Watts' What is Zen? which helped me fully understand just what all the fuss was about. After reading this, I found that I could finally understand the Tao Te Ching after many months of having no idea of what I was reading. It may seem silly, but it's very similar to the cliche martial arts movie trope that requires a young man to attain some sort of ancient powerful knowledge before he can truly understand his purpose. After gaining this understanding, I felt that I had attained a new way of seeing life that I had never felt before. A way of life that made everything wonderful and enjoyable and that cured my worries for a short time. I will not give creedence to the naysayers because I know what I have felt, but I must note that I've seen many people of present who treat Zen as some sort of hip new philosophy that they can use to view the world through, until they switch to the next one. Many many people my age obsess too heavily over the idea of the Tao or Zen or anything related, that to outsiders they just seem like crazy schizos. I must clarify, that I do not, nor have I ever, called myself a Buddhist, I simply find its principles very useful in my life.

With me now being accepting of Buddhism though, I've since opened up to the spiritual world as a whole. I believe in many things that I know are not factually true, but I still believe that they are good beliefs to hold. For example, the existence of magic and alchemy. I could write an entire page for these alone, so I won't get into it, but I bring these up only to cement the idea that I am now open to spirituality and what some would consider "mistruths and falsehoods". About a month ago I listened to an explanation of a book of the Bible, and in that explanation came the following quote:

Then came Peter to him, and said, 'Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Till seven times?'"
Jesus saith unto him, 'I say not unto thee, until seven times, but, until seventy times seven.'"

Ever since I heard this, I've slowly become more and more of a follower of Christianity. I enjoy reading the Bible, and I think there are many lessons to be gained from it. I do not go to church, and I don't ever plan on it. I don't believe there is anyone out there that can properly determine for me what my beliefs should be, I have to uncover them myself. Now that we've made it to the present day, this page is dedicated to, as you may have guessed, any notes or thoughts that I have on Christianity, be it lessons from the Bible, thoughts on modern Christianity, or anything else related to Christianity.